sweet as a eucalyptus, terrible as a tempest
is an impossibility for me. a real, righteous anger that bores a hole to the soul.
i cannot consider it a saintly trait. there is a time when anger is a necessary element to move on. to get rid of sin. to exorcise the haunting devils. to change.
but i am incapable of getting to that kind of anger that purges. what i get is petty annoyance that fizzles in ten seconds. it doesn't help my plight at all.
let me get angry.
